Now I’m not saying that I’m perfect, far from it. But how is it that I’ve been laid off for a year now (I have worked about two months of that time but not consecutively) when there are some total fuck ups in my trade that are still working?

I’ve never told my boss to go fuck himself (and I’ve wanted to). I don’t run around all day shopping on company time (yeah I’ve actually seen this). As a matter of fact I’ve busted my ass for these people when I should have been home with my family. Yet I’m sitting home paying out of my pocket to keep my health benefits

Don’t misunderstand me here, I’m not whining. This isn’t about “Oh, why is this happening to me?” Shit happens I accept that. I just think it’s fucked up. Am I better off just saying fuck it and being a lazy shithead? I’m pretty sure the world has enough of those but I’d like just a little appreciation. (maybe in the form of a weekly paycheck)

It’s all bullshit and I don’t see anything changing anytime in the future. It would be nice to get back to work and not have to deal with all this bullshit though. Don’t get me wrong being home with my family all this time has been great but I’m tired of having to watch every penny.

Because of all this we’ve had to give up pretty much everything we had just to get by and it’s the third time it’s happend since we’ve been married. I’m sure to someone who doesn’t know the situation it looks like it’s something I’m doing something wrong but if you work in a union then you probably get it. And if you don’t well fuck you, I don’t really care what you think anyway